This series I have planed on painting was originally going to be titled lady in the clouds cause that is how I always think of it but now i believe it will be titled reflections
It is still in progress and needs alot of work but this is what i have so far;)
Curtosy of my sis I have some fress pics of the girls. We are working on making a story for my girls Keepers is going to help with the illustrations my sis is helping with the pics for the illustrations and me… im just working with the words;) At any rate here are some of the pics we took in preperation for the illustrations and the story…
Enjoy..
I do believe this is one of my favorites
sweet pea was off doing her own thing but cookie she’s a complete ham and was all about getting her pic taken
So I can’t come up with a new and original post name … bad girl
But here is something nice and new.. if you like some of the professional pics I have shared here you will LOVE my sisters blog. I finally convinced her to start a blog with all her pics… so here it is
this is short for now but I will try and add more in a bit…
Please roll over there and give her a warm welcome to the blog world!!!
thanks bunches
sometimes it kinda blows my mind just how much sweet pea looks like me as a kid
we are about the same age in the pics give or take a bit….
I know the pic dosn’t fit the post really, but come on… who can resist the sweetness of this pic;)
That is kinda what’s going on in my head right now. There is so much that has been happening that I honestly don’t know where to start. I recognize how our lives are constantly evolving and changing and how it impacts us as individuals but sometimes it still manages to blow me away on a personal level. I am still working at my hospital. I call it my hospital cause I really love it there. The people are great and the job is good and I am learning so much. It’s one of those rare facilities that goes the extra mile to take care of there patients. They are even a magnet hospital because there nursing staff is so awesome, to cool!! It’s a lot to juggle though sometimes. Working, school, kids and general life situations. Money is tight even with both of us working. Bills and groceries just seem to keep going up ya know? I do miss being with the girls all the time and at the same time I do enjoy my grown up time at work.
Most recently however, my biggest challenge to face has been two miscarriages in the last 5 months. I knew before it was hard on women. I knew that it totally sucked and I knew that different people view and say it different ways. I just never realized how vastly irritating people could be about it.
I edited out the comments people made to me about my miscarriages and my thoughts about them because my response to them sounded so harsh even to me… I know people meant to be supportive and that is what I will think about instead.
and to everyone… I say Thank you! I know you all care I know you all wanted to make me feel better and i really appreciate what your trying to do!
In the end what we all agree on is it sucks really seriously sucks.
But enough about that because honestly… i need something positive.
Today I enrolled in a bachler’s program at Devry. So when I FINALLY graduate with my assocites degree this spring I will be rolling forward in to the bachler’s program. Im excited and nervouse, but happy and confident in my choice. I think it was a good one for both me and my family. They offer me the opertunity to attend a graduation ceromoney complete with cap and gown. I am debating if I want to do that. I have had a couple of people tell me I really should do it and that I should celabrate my hard work but I don’t know. It’s not like I have a bunch of people that will attend or anything. So I’m still debating it but I really need to submit my graduation paperwork. My family has been wonderful in supporting me with the decision to continue my education and isn’t that great!! I am really lucky to have that support!!!
On another note I got to visit with Keepers again recently and that was a blast:) We got to sit down for a while and I got a lesson in painting which was soooooo cool. I learned alot and just really enjoyed myself with the visit. The girls had a wonderful time and “The man” enjoyed himself with JM.
Cookie went for kindergarden testing today. She did well and had fun. Wow it seems like just yesterday she was a baby and here she is growing up so fast and getting ready for school. Time sure does fly!!
Just wanted to let auntie know were hoping for good results on your health test next week.
love you
Things have been a bit crazy and that is why I haven’t posted of late. Sorry bout that. I left my job at the store that I was working at. The one that was physically demanding and overnight. I got hired on at this really awesome hospital as a reliefe worker meaning I don’t have guranteed hours but my boss is great and going to give me full time hours for a bit and cross train me as much as possible so later on I can get as many hours as possible. woowhoo. The kids like the new arraingment better. Though they do miss me still cause they are not used to me working away from home. For a time I was working both jobs part time and that wasn’t working out at all the kids were unhappy cause I was not home enough and I was getting sick alot. One job much much better. I love my new job. I love the people there and the environment is awesome so positive and I am much happier!! School is going well, I am taking a creative writting class this session so I’m happy. Hope everyone is doing well!
Sorry it took so long but here it is…
this is cookie sweet pea and kelly all dressed. kelly is a goth faire and sweet pea and cookie are princess fairie’s they had such fun trick or treating and sweet pea they were clothed up cause it was chilly here. sweet pea was saying trick or treat but no body understood her so she stopped and ended up holding her bag up and saying candy. she did say please and thank you and both the girls got lots of awwing
have a good day
The only consistant rule of life is
1) Nothing ever stays the same
and
2) Plans do not always work out
So knowing this is the reason I kept my other job. Good thing to as I was unable to keep the new job. During training they mentioned that there could be absolutly no noise. this was new and wow not going to work. So I only worked there for two weeks. Now I am back down to one job and reduced hours at that job. Financially not good. Emotionally for the family this is good. the girls didn’t like the hours I was keeping trying to work both jobs and I am still trying to calm cookie down from that. Sweet pea is still very clingy. Poor thing. So now I work only three days a week and spend the four with them. Cookie was through the roof happy about this and cleaned her room and all the toys in the living room when I told her. WOW. She was happy. Still looking for a permanent job that is in my field of study and the school is very helpful for that. The job market now is just very difficult ya know. Everyone is looking for work so your either underqualified or over. ugh. I have been working towards getting into this one facility. I got an interview in person sorta well they were tests really but anyway I did that which is further then I have gotten before. I still haven’t heard back but am keeping my fingers crossed. It is a really awesome facility so lets hope. It would be a on call filler position and my goal would be to eventually get hired on full time. The lady that interviewed me over the phone seemed to really like me so… we shall see. As far as school goes I am retaking the cpt coding class and then I will be taking a creative writting class it’s honors option what ever that means? I think I will like it I mean come on the last creative writting class helped me outline my story. Speaking of which I hope to get some more work done on that since I actually will be having some time on my hands now:) I think I am at the point of sitting back and waiting to see what happens ya know? I keep trying to push and that isn’t getting me anywhwere so I will give it some time and wait a bit… then I will push again.
this past week we marked 22 years since mom passed. It never gets any easier. Sometimes I wonder if it’s so hard because of so many unanswered questions I have or if it would be hard no matter what. Any time I say 22 years people look at me like im outta my mind.. then it clicks and they say just how old were you?
I dyed my hair this week. I was ready for a change I guess LOL… It is now red and it dosn’t look half bad if I do say so my self. my hair has red in it anyways so it always takes really well to the red dye. I’ll have to get a pic when I take the girls trick or treating tommorow.
They are going to be fairies. They both say tinker bell but if you watch tinker bell then you see they are actually fairies with different names. I will not bust there bubble…..it was so cute when they put the costumes on they were flapping there arms flying around;) My friend from work her name is kelly… anyways she went with us to the store. That was funny. my girls love her but nothing really keeps them from going a little bonkers when they hit the toy department. cookie was like mommy i want this i want that…. then kelly the awesome soul that she is let cookie bake cupcakes with her. I was in the living room doing homework while they were happily in the kitchen decorating cupcakes. Sometimes I think kelly is really in love with my girls LOL. She is something like a little sister. I always wanted a little sister tho sometimes she jokingly calls me mom cause i do that mom thing all the time.. it’s not entirely my fault as you know you get into the habbit of being mom.
enjoy the costumes and adorable kids tommorow!!
I will be able to work from home again soon yay. I will be going back to the company I was laid off from before. The only reason I didn’t try this position before is because I didn’t think I could because the hours are evening hours and I wasn’t sure I would be able to get baby sitters for those hours. But my family has been amazingly helpful ( I never doubted them just know they are tremondously busy) and I will be able to work from home again. I am so excited because the other job I have is very hard on me physically and with the hours it’s hard on the family life. Ironically enough I think my family is not only willing enough to help but excited to some extent about watching the kids and helping out. Ok I know my kids are adorable and all so Im not to surprised but they can be a handful LOL. for the first 3-8 weeks I will work both jobs then after that if I am picking up enough hours at the at home job I will go down to just working it. beyond that things are there usual crazy busy self. Just wanted to check in let you all know I’m still alive and still at some point in this life time planning on catching up… hopefully soon. Take care ohh and i plan to have pics of the kids when they dress up this year. I won’t be taking them out to trick or treat but my niecie girl and dad will so there are bound to be loads of pics;)
