Sorry I have been gone so long. It hasn’t been intentional. As far as financially speaking things have gone from bad to worse. Nothing went like I hoped it would at all and that totally sucks. Yeah I know I was trying to keep a positive spin and it was only a hope that things wouldn’t get bad but well… gotta have hope that it will get better ehh:P

School has kept me very busy. This last month in the coding class has been hectic. I just finished my final and I don’t think I did to great on it but then again there is always that hope that I did better then I thought. Up till the final I had an 88 % I just hope it dosn’t go down to another C that would really drop my GPA and I’d like to keep it above a 3.5 especiall since I can’t keep the 4.0 ugh

kids are spring fever crazy. I missed a perfect picture the other day sorry bout that it was cute to. sweet pea and cookie were playin outside with daddy while I was studying and when they came in they were covered in mud… sweet pea had a face full of it… and they were none to happy daddy made them come in and take a bath… go figure.

hope to visit some of the blogs I haven’t been to in a long time. It’ll take a bit since i’ll have alot of back reading to do…. sorry.

I know this is a bit of a “dry” update but to be honest Im a bit wrung out from all the other stress in life that is going on.

if you pray there are two prayer request that I have if you don’t pray then postive thoughts please

1st is a friend of mine recently had some major surgery. there were alot of complications but to be honest given her situation it went better then many feared. she is doing alot better but is still strugling so if you don’t mind prayers or positive thoughts her way please!!!

2nd… im desperate and need a job… hopes and positive thoughts that i’ll find one soon!!!

And the search is on

Sweet pea got the hang of it this year she was off and running from the get go;)

There were times I was thinking pappy was having as much fun if not more so then the kiddies LOL

Kong was trying to get in on the action he figured if he followed them around he was going to get some goodies to

and the goodies begin… they love this part lots of toys lots of candy

This is what happens when you are silly enough to get those things that stick on the ceiling cookie had the entire living room ceiling full by the time she was done….

Things have been busy here. You’d think that once I got laid off life would be slower but with two toddler monekys not so much. I have been trying to figure out what exactly my future plans for school are. I have been looking for job openings and what I would need to get the job etc. People in my field are wanting two to three years experience or a Bachlers degree. I am still considering the bachlers degree. They do offer it at Devry as an IT with a focus in HIT which would be perfect for what I am wanting. It was recomeneded to me that to decress loan amounts I find a job then see if they offer reimbursment for continuing education. (seems like a great idea to me!!) The bad news is the company that laid me off isn’t going to file for the TRA. It means if they don’t file I can’t file for it which means I can’t graduate sooner. Bummer. I am going to see if there is anyway I can double on my classes this summer and graduate early, if not I can still graduate as planned in december. I won’t actually get my paper work till feb. when the semsester offically ends but the guy I talked to in career placement said I can still look they will still help. You want to here one of the really cool things I found out? Devry offers help for job placement/searches for the rest of your life once you graduate. How cool is that? He said that graduating in dec will probably be better for me as the HIT degree is a new degree for them and by then they will have more contacts more graduates which means more success for me in finding a job. This just means I will have to figure out how to cut corners till then. One of the good news in that area is sweet pea is showing signs of being ready to potty train. (wooowhoo) The girls are enjoying having me all day to themselves now. School has started again and I actually did pretty decent on last week’s homework. The teacher seems really awesome and the bonus round is that something was done about the teacher I had from last semseter. While I feel bad for her in a way in some respects It gives me alot of confidence in the fact that Devry really is there to do a good job and provide a good enviroment for the students. I am happy with having decided to go with them for school…. I need to get a Devry shirt or something;)

I meant to do this sooner but have been absent minded with everything that is going on.

Sarabeth over at I once was HP is giving away a laptop computer for kids… give her a look and see what is going on!! It’s an awesome deal!!

DEAD LINE IS 3/15

Well Cookie’s party went well. Everybody made it cookie was so happy she was about to burst and the kids all had fun. I do have to admit to taking a little bit of perferse pleasure in giving my BIL a hard time. I mean I can’t help it he leaves these moments wide open and it’s like begging me to tease him. The boys in this family make it so easy. It’s the man card thing. *rolls eyes* Never fails to crack me up. Never. Not. Once. See when ever we get together for any kind of celebration that involves exchanging gifts the girls naturally get something in pink. (Now I have to mention that the BIL is awesome when it comes to playing with the girls. He even sits there patiently when they drap necklaces on him -which would explain why the girls think the sun rises and sets on there uncle, it’s just that he has two boys…. just a few years older then the girls… I can’t resist…..) I mean, come on, there room is bright purple and pink with pink bread spreads and all kinds of girlie things. Baby dolls, doll houses, barbie dolls etc. This time cookie got a princess table with chairs and a tea party set. *insert wicked grin here* So of course the girls were going to play with it right? Now BIL was all good with the play dough and such. But when it came time for the tea party he was wearing this pained expression and when youngest little man decided he would much rather play tea party with his cousins then put on his super man shoes I though BIL was going to bust a valve. I did of course get pics.. plenty of them… but I will take pity on BIL and not post them. Not that he reads or anything but still as much as I love to tease him I will take pity. It just cracks me up when he says “nooooooo don’t touch the pink it burns… wouldn’t you much rather play with the transformer over here or spider man or better yet superman” teee heeee.

The party did go well though and we all had a blast. Niecie girl came over and her and the girls had a wonderful time. She let me sleep in and was a real sweet heart. I haven’t posted sooner cause I am having my third round of the flu in 6 weeks and this time it seems to be taking a real toll. I thought the broncituts sucked but really it all does. So to deal with my misery and my inability to sleep I have been indulgeing in one of my favorite past times. In the last 3 days I have read ohhh about 7 or 8 books. One of them was a free e-book from Tor. It was called Old Man’s War. I gotta tell you that one had me laughing out loud and that is rare for me to do. In fact I was laughing so hard my husband gave me a dirty look and turned up the T.V. That was the night I read three books in one evening. ( Hey I was misirible and unable to sleep what else is a girl to do?) Two tried and true authors I read that night were kay hooper and sherrilyn kenyon. -BTW achron comes out 08/04/08- (names may have been splled wrong and Im sorry but in my defense I’m in bed with a pile of tissues and a box of cough drops so please don’t ask me to get up and get the books to correct the spelling.) Both write paranormal romances. Both are darn good at what they do. I never turn away a book by either of those authors. Next I read Jim Butcher This time I was reading the Dresdyn series… next I follow up with Shannon Butcher Which btw is what I just finished and was darn good. This book was No control.

Yes I know Im an adict. My faithful husband, bless his heart, just shakes his head now when he see’s me come home from the store or an “errand” with a stack of books and the only time he looks worried is when I only have one. If Im lucky and I find a discount store or a flea market where I can pick up several for the price of one, well he just kinda laughs and ask, how broke are we. The only time he grunts about it is when were cleaning and he finds stacks of books all over the house. Like before the party for cookie. “He looks at me and says how many of these stacks do you have?” Then he tips his head back shakes it slightly and turns away. “Never mind, I don’t think I want to know.” (there were two stacks in the kitchen and three in the living room so not that many really) BIL has now officially refused to help us move ever again. Actually he quietly stepped out of that roll after the first time he helped us and picked up a box groaned and huffed out “What on earth do you have in here?” Husband picked up his box and grunted out “books” and that was five years ago.

I will say that my friends that love to read love me;) I get them interested in new authors and I have plenty of books for them to borrow;)

I have been quiet the last two weeks because alot has been going on. And I do mean alot. I got my final notice. the 15th of Feb will be my last day of work. My hubs came to me and asked for me to make a doctors apt cause he had a knot in his chest/abdominal area. right under his rib cage basically. and I was freaking out. I know I know I over reacted. Can’t help it. (in my defense having mom die from breast cancer and several of his family memebers passing away recently -some from cancer- Young and old was a good enough reason to freak for me) then trying to navigate the unemployment TRA thingy jiggy is confusing. plus we got taxes done payed of lotsa bills, though not as much as i wanted, and then life itself, two weeks seems to pass by in a blink.

Yesterday we seen the doc cause the nurse practioner and i don’t get along so well and she scared me more. anyways this other doc not my normal PCP cause she was out was really cool and very much put my mind at ease about the knot, bump lump whatever. it’s normal part of his anatomy just inflamed over stressed due to his work etc.

I have enrolled in school. But due to getting layed off I have a nice two week gap with no work no school. wooowhooo

my todler monkeys (Yeah i know i used to call them monsters but they fit monkeys better nowdays) are onry as ever and yes i have a new pic of cookie.. i just have to get some stamps before i can post it (you’ll see why when i post.)

everyone in the house has been sick both the man and i had a nasty case of broncitus. the man and i are better though it looks like sweet pea is now worse (poor thing didn’t sleep at all last night)

Im ordering new glasses today. the man said if we do nothing else with income tax return we are getting you new glasses. (clearly my attempt at rigging the glasses with tap has offended him on some deep level;P)

Last but not least im going to post something here for a friend of mine. I got her permission before posting it so it’s ok. She’s a pretty amazing lady and if you can see what you can do;)

Click here to visit my personal page.

Robocop taged me for a meme… this is the first one I have done in like for ever… i have a lot of tages to catch up on… so i think over the next couple of weeks this is what i will do..;P

so the thing to do was write up six things about yourself that are nonessential or something or other and to tage the person who tagged you. I linked to him above.. im also supposed to tag six people… i just say the first six people that want to do this can…

1) If I am anywhere in the vacinity of a crying baby i have this overwhelming urge to go comfort it. I know im weird.. but i have tracked down kids in the store just so I can wave at them and get them distraced so they can stop crying. You’d be surpirsed at how a simple trick like that sometimes works;)

2) I’m a book adict… yep thats right you heard me im addicted to reading. I read just about anything romance, sci fi, fantasy, mystery, thriller, westerns.. it dosn’t matter as long as it’s a good story and the characters draw me in…

3) my husband can drive my bonkers like no one else on the face of this earth.. and yet… I don’t know what I would do without him. He is my world.

4) It cracks me up when i go to the local book store and i help several customers find what they want/need and they are like cool i never thought i read something like this but it sounds amazing… i love that

5) I think if someone needs a little boost it’ is our job to do so. ie lady in the store is talking with friends and is distracted kid climbing outta the cart.. she didn’t quite see it.. stop say hey i don’t think your mom wants you doin that little man and she says ohh thank you. i say i have to little climbers of my own i get it… or lady at the front desk needing to call home to find out about return or forgotten items but for the store it is long distance so she can’t call she dosn’t have a cell phone i do i hand it over say make your call… you’d be amazed at the little things we do as people that make a difference for someone else… it’s a good thing

6) I love to organize but if i can’t do it right i don’t want to do it at all. Im a bit anal retentive in this area

7) I can’t count obviously … i adopt people. once i consider them a part of my family they always are. I have a large extended family network that i have adopted. Can’t seem to help myself;)

So the other day while I’m trying to clean the kitchen and do some laundry (have baby gates in the door way as it is totally impossible to do these things with the TM’s under my feet). Cookie starts screaming

“Im a superhero”

“I’m a superhero”

at the top of her very loud voice. Oh did I mention I was on the phone? Hey now, I’m pretty darn good with that multi tasking thing. Anyways, at first I couldn’t make out what she was saying as sometimes when she is excited she gets kinda garbled. So she says it a few more times and for emphasis she raises one arm in the air. so I respond…

WB “oohhh your a superhero”

cookie ” *gives me a duhh stair* Thats what I been sayin I’m a superhero and I’m going to rescue you.”

WB *insert very loud snort* “your going to resuce me from folding cloths?”

cookie *raises arm into the air “Superhero Cookie to the rescue”

then suddenly she lowers her arm looks at me very seriously and says “Mom I need you to get my costume”

WB *blink* “Ok”

So i go to get her “costume”

cookie (with complete exasperation in her voice) “Mom I need superhero shoes to”

WB *blink* *choke* *gasp* *weeze* where did this obsession with shoes come from? “ok put these on”

cookie “Mooooommmmmmm these are slippers not super hero shoes”

WB “Well there super hero shoes now”

Cookie *sigh* (and wow she has mastered this art) “fine”

So newly adorned with cape and slipper (of course no pants) she stands up and screams

“Superhero cookie to the rescue”

And look it just so happens I have a picture to prove it. (sorry couldn’t get the slippers in they were strawberry short cake slippers)

Those who are following my story will be happy to know (I think) that I am almost ready to post chapter 8. I am pleased with how this chapter is going. (Even better that chapter 9 is already written and all I have to do is proof it before I post it.) While It would appear I am stalling somewhat in what happens to Natina I don’t think I am. She deviated a bit from what I had orginally planned for her but I think it ended up being a good thing as it gives you the reader (ha and me the writter) a better sense of who Natina is. So far in the story I haven’t given her alot of “air time” simply because I knew her part of the story was going to be so very hard to write. They all Des, Dare and Natina have a major roll to play in the story and they all have big obsticals to face. Most of them were a bit easier to write though then Natina’s. She is good practice for a tougher series of stories I plan to write soon.

I haven’t talked about it very much but one thing I hope to do soon is write a series of children’s/young adult stories. They are not “happily ever after” in the general sense of the term as they will be hard topics to cover. They are the Sarah Beth series. They will cover topics like divorce, child abuse, family death etc. I think it will be good for kids to see that they are not alone in what they face. How many children go out there looking for some kind of sign to know they are not alone? I think this is a perfect opportunity for me to let them know they aren’t. Somewhere somehow there is a person out there who totally gets what they are feeling. I have the intention to get the proof read by a therapist who spealizes in childhood trauma to make sure they are “safe” reading for kids. Maybe it’s an idealistic goal. Maybe it’s foolish I don’t really know. At any rate here are some of the titles I plan to use for the Sarah Beth series.

Wheres daddy?

I said NO

The big bad C

Why do I feel so alone?

The goal for these stories is to let kids know there not alone and to help empower them. I think the reason people do crazy things sometimes is because they feel so out of control. Without direction. This isn’t going to be the answer to any questions but maybe it will be a way to help figure out what some of those questions are. It’s just a thought anyways.

have a good week!

The doctors office did call back and the hubs and i talked alot. We have decided to go ahead with the procedure for various reasons. One of the main factors is that the surgery once she is healed from it will not stop her from doing any kinds of sports or other physical activities once she heals. The doc said there would be no restrictions what so ever on her activities. The doc also said this is not something that will ever heal on it’s own or through braces. Surger is the only way to correct her leg. So we will get her leg fixed. As I said before I will wait till I get laid off so I will be able to take care of her myself full time. They will keep her over night the first night for pain managemnt and to watch for complications and I will stay with her that night. I feel better with the addtional information for this decision. I just pray that there will be no complications and she will heal fast and be back to her monkey climbing self soon after it is done. Thanks for your advice and support.

have a good weekend all!!!